Imaginary Soothing Companions:
Inktober 2019 Day 4
I’ll Sleep When I’m Dead. Maybe
In the quest for at least minimally acceptable amounts of sleep, I have tried various forms of meditation, mindfulness, and breath work. There is sadly more to come on this topic, but since I was tired of drawing my own increasingly jowly face, I thought I would move on to my problems with visualization and the generation of positive mind states.
Several meditation or self-regulation techniques invite you to imagine a positive or soothing situation- say that you are with someone you love. I have tried the perhaps most idiotically concrete implementation of this concept: imagining holding one of my sons as a sleeping infant or napping with my long-departed dead cat.
But of course, both kids were epically terrible sleepers as infants who preferred to nap almost exclusively while being carried by a walking adult...and would then go off like car alarms the moment they were transferred to a non mobile surface...or a mobile surface that was not their mother, for that matter.
My cat was rarely a snuggly lap pet and was also a rather opinionated individual who did not exactly prioritize my needs for emotional support....or for sleep. He was more interested, for instance, in catching a mouse in the middle of the night and then carefully pushing it up against my neck so he could play with it in my bed.
I really need to focus and visualize that rarest of infant or feline naps, carefully refraining from letting my mind wander to the other 99.9% of our interactions involving sleep.
Perhaps this is an extra mindfulness challenge that will pay off someday.